I am not trying to lie. I guess I was talking around the fact that I've only been serious with one other guy (because I was embarrassed about it), and that was the "bad guy" type we were neighbors, so
Divorced swingers ready sex big women it wasn't so much going out and dating. To answer your question, I did sit down with him more than once to try to end things. The first time (though these blend together in my mind) he said a "spark" isn't always necessary, that he would always care for me and be a friend, but he would like to keep having a relationship. He did say he could guess reasons I wouldn't be attracted to him that he's getting older, a few minor flaws in his appearance, etc but I truthfully said none of that was important to me. He was almost engaged once but realized he couldn't deal with the girl's "issues" but says he can deal with mine. The second time, I tried again but he asked if I was trying to leave so I could get into another relationship. I said no. He said he had no one either he was close to (and this is where the weird part came up, when he said he couldn't date someone for at least a year until he made a lot more money). So we had this odd discussion about gold-diggers and self-arranged marriages how I thought that was crazy, and how it didn't bother him, that he knew couples like that who were happy. I said I only wanted to for, and he said that's not how it has to happen. Sorry, another post but at the end, he said he'd still be my friend and be supportive (since, clearly, I'm struggling) but the line between friendship and dating has been very thin, and I think we're still on the dating side. So it's complicated and probably a lot of that is my fault. But I think he has his own insecurities when I've told him I care about him but think we shouldn't be together, he jokes, "Oh, so you hate my guts?" and I feel forced to respond "of course not" or something like that. Whew! Possibly longest post of my life. Kudos if you read it.