I keep thinking this shouldn't be this much of a struggle. But then I worry that it's going to
East Lake-Orient Park be this way with every guy, since I argue with every bf i have. I guess I do start stuff, maybe my number one priority should be a guy thats excellent at confrontation/communication. We do have a lot of fun together when I don't set expectations. He's my bestfriend. But I worry of his intentions too. He's in a financial ruin i don't think his credit would allow him to rent right now. Some debt consol. anywho, our last arguement he sadly said something like, 2 afraid 2 stay 2 afraid 2 move on. He's 35 I think he's ready to settle down. Its sad, but people in his industry tell him that married men sell more. We just attack react very emotionally. It escalates so fast! Well he says i attack. I've been in ltr relationships since the 8th grade! I was told to look at it like stepping stones with each guy it get better. At 33 I am so afraid of starting over. It took me 3 years to find this guy. He is a doll, he just doesn't have the self confidence it takes to handle me, have pride in ownership, initiate sex, be romantic. But like i said, we seem to be great when I'm not expecting anything. I have a hard time asking for help, I have an even harder time hearing him say i'm needy when I do say I need some support or compassion from him. My mom knows me like the back of her hand. She says she's worried that i picked him because he fufilled my "- resume" that i need to find someone who just "gets me". Someone who knows i'm a little on the high maintenance side. that i'm blunt not rude. honest in fact! that when i come at them with something i'm not saying their wrong, i'm saying i'm upset about it. My integrity is HUGE I don't think he appreciates it as much as it could be. I can be silly at times and some of it is what he loves about me and sometimes he leaves me hanging and won't laugh. I did some modeling back in the day and the Physical thing does NOTHING for him. When things aren't perfect i would a little animal instinct to kick in once in a while, but nope, not with him. I guess if he was awful it would be easier, but he's such a good guy. I'm afraid of blinking, I'm 40 and never finding again. 1. how do you like your eggs? (don't say fertilized, ha!) scrambled with lots of cheese and ketchup 2. the most you've ever won off of a scratch off? never bought one 3. what's the soonest you ever moved in with someone you've dated? my current gf moved in with me 2 months into our relationship. (her mother kicked her out when she found out about us) 4. if you could domesticate any animal it would be? giant cat of some form.. maybe a tiger? 5. would you rather live surrounded by mountains or water? either way there would be lots of bugs.. YUCK 6. do you use your text message cell phone feature, or find it irritating? I text like it is my job. its great for keeping up with the GF while she works.